selfish i looked at the mirror
i saw myself
i looked at my eyes in the mirror
i saw someone else's eyes
staring back at me

those eyes are cold
they're tired
from long sleepness nights,
from carrying the excess baggage of the mind

them eyes are dry though
the well's dried up
no longer will they be moist
not because the are over the hurt
but because they've drowned
in the strong under currents
beneath the smile on my face

i'm smiling as i shaved this morning
but it wasn't for me
just so that when i step out of the shower
they will be distracted by my smile

so that my eyes, they will not see  ¶ 11:39 pm